growing up is never been this hard

hm... yeah
this tomato kisser gonna share u some old story...
this is happened 6 months ago...

it started when... a dude yang baru saja saya kenal mengajak pergi ke undisclosed location ketika itu,cuz saya benar2 have no idea where will he put me out.he said we're gonna see his buddies!my first thought was... hyeah really?then i didnt really remember why i said yes!and his friends never showed up till i got home anyway..
the trip was going well.!
and i just realized that my pencil case which is my 'peralatan perang keramat' ketinggalan in his ride.i texted him,asking him apakah bnar tempat pinsil saya ketinggalan? and he only say yes!nothing else!
that's it,yeah itu saja... pathetic!that asshole has trapped me!
i just want my pencil case back anyway!

2 weeks after we loose contact,and i almost get over him!dan tiba tiba saja he came back to my life,and i didnt know why saya menerima kehadiranya dengan baik!
and he changed to be a really nice person,....
untill tiba2 saja dia made a relationship dengan teman dekat saya!(she knew that im in to him anyway)
i felt so dumb!yeah.. love is sick!
dan saya mulai melupakan that asshole..................
until he explained anything why he did that,and those were only mistakes.

yeah the point is that asshole is my dude now.and now he has proved me what he said 3 months ago! gag ngerti sih bakal bertahan atau tidak...
i just want the best for us!yeah like every couples did....
though we had lots differences,... saya hanya ingin melewati ini semua dengan damai...
dan kabar saya dengan teman dekat saya sudah kembali normal.yeah not normal fake i hope....
cuz sebulan saya merasa seperti seorang fvckin betrayer.berasa ngianatin tmen sendiri..


i dunno why i tell those shits to u guys... cuz im missing him rite now, he's still sick!and his mood sedang tidak bisa diprediksi..
im JUST so fvckin tired facing these situation everyday!